new! new! new!!

i've moved to a new blog... well, it's not i hate this blog, no, i love it soo much and that is why i'm not deleting it, i'm just readdressing it... hahaha... had a great tyme with this particular blog and i'm gonna miss this blog... but feel free to pass by to my new blog... =)

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i love you guys for being my reader... thank u so much for reading all my ups and downs here...

page 323

wow!! it's been so soooo long since my last update right?

my mojo has been missing and that is why i didnt update this blog for such a long time...

n ia m sorry for that...

i know i have been saying 'sorry' for quite some time,

but i really mean it...

well, so many had happens in my life but most of it is a great things...

just know that life has been great for me...

it's awesome...

n just know that i love you... =)

page 321

am i that hard to read??
why can't u just see through me??
why can't you just read what's inside my mind??


i am pissed off coz u can read others,
but not me...
why not me??
haish...


please try your hard to try and read me so i don't have to spill it out every single thing...

p/s: ilyg...

page 320

i love you!
yes i do...
but i am afraid to give away my heart...
i am afraid it would be broken,
AGAIN...

p/s: ilyg...

page 319

sometimes i wish my life would turn out differently from now.. but sometimes i am thankful that it turn out this way...


i used to be a really broken-hearted girl.. the one who cries in her sleep every single night.. the one who would always get mad at herself because she is dumped by her boyfriend... the one who thought that she will never be good enough for anybody... the one who were at the the very bottom of her life...


it takes the broken-hearted girl days to recover from her broken heart... it takes her weeks to find the pieces of her heart... it takes he months to put the pieces back together and make it a perfect heart back again...


n now my heart is a whole.. i healed... it has recover...and now it is at the top of my life... and i am about to give it away again.... but am i ready for that?? am i ready to get my heart broken again?? am i ready for this whole new world for me??


am i being unfair if i don't want to give away my heart?? am i being selfish?? *sigh*


i am trying to be a better person... it's not that i am not trying... i am trying, every single day of my life... i am trying to be a better person, in fact a great person, so that people won't easily walk out on me, so that they would remember me as i am, so that they would smile everytime they think of me... =)


i just want to be me.









p/s: ilyg...

page 318

its the first day of april...
its april fool...
i almost forgot...


i have bigger things to think about than april fool...
im having a headache... =(
i can't even think straight especially with this headache... huhuhu...


i'm currently craving for burger...
i mean burger yg dijual kat tepi2 jalan 2...
i call it as burger tepi jalan...
fifi lak panggil burger gerai...
tp watever it is,
antara bnyk2 burger,
burger 2 gak lah yg paling sedap... hehehe...


sekarang nir saye tgah kusut...
alamak, terpaksa ngaku gak..
kalo akidd bace nie, mesti die bangga... =p


ye akidd, i terpakse ngaku yang skang nie i mmg sgt2 tgah kusut...
huhuhuhuh...
nie sume bejangkit ngn u lah nie... adoii....


but to whoever that might concern,
please wait kayh... =)

p/s: ilyg...

page 317

i dream of you last night...
is that a sign for me??
please tell me...
or give me another sign so i can be sure....

p/s: ilyg...

page 316

we all have our scars,
and so do i...
i bleed, and it healed...


but whatever it is,
it leaves a mark...
everything leaves a mark,
n so do my pain,
it leaves a scars that would never go away...


but with this scars,
it made me who i am today....


it actually makes me afraid....
i am afraid of being left again,
i don't want to be in the same situation again...


but they say,
until when??
i'm not sure myself...


however,
i do realize something...


everyone have their own scars,
n perhaps their scars it more than mine...


but they still take the risk,
so why shouldnt i....


i believe that life is all about taking risk,
life would be meaningless if no risk is taken...


so am i brave enough to take the risk??
i have taken the risk few days before,
but am i gonna take it again??
we'll see....

p/s: ilyg....

page 315

i really hope for the best...
i really hope that i won't make the same mistake twice...
i really hope i know what i have to do now...
i really hope someone could actually help me with my miseries...
i really hope that this would turn out to be good at the end...
i really hope that i have all the time in this world for me to think...
i really hope that you will wait for me...
i really hope that life won't be unfair to me...
i really hope that this is all be worth it to me...
i really hope that fear won't blind me or my judgement...
i really hope that i can make up my mind...
i really hope that you would understand...
i really hope that you are the one for me...


but how do i know that you are the one for me??
god, please give me some sign....
*sigh


or maybe i'm just thinking too much??

p/s: ilyg....

page 314

(gmbr contoh.... hahahahha....)

i really miss being crazy with my friends...
gosh how i miss my old times...
n i miss them for sure...
being crazy with them is the best thing in life...

can someone please bring the craziness in me back out??

i really miss it...
jom kite naek mesin putar masa so that kite bole gy kat masa lampau n have our good times like before...
pleeeeaaaassssseeeeeee.....
i want to just laugh out loud like no one is around...
hahahahhahahahahahahha....


(crazy me)

p/s: ilyg... criusly dowh...





p/p/s: this post is for all my friends out there... past n present... i really do miss u guys... =)