i realized that lately i've been posting about how miserable and sad i am...
but it's my blog kan,
suke atie lah nk tulis ape pun....
i am writing all that so that i can let it out...
for now,
i don't have any happy moments...
maybe i won't be having happy moments at all dah kot...
my life has fall apart...
n there's no way i can pick up back the pieces...
it's true when people say,
kalo nk mati dah,
our life flashes before our eyes kan...
but i felt slightly different thing...
happy moments flashes before my eyes when something beautiful is about to fall apart....
hahaha...
u may say i'm stupid,
but i'd rather be stupid...
well, like i've said before,
i've changed now...
i am a nerd little girl who's not gonna have fun at all...
why no fun??
because i don't deserve to have fun...
and this past whole week,
never been out of the house to have even a bit of fun...
just once coz paah kate,
'org nerd pun chill gak'
so that will be the last time i would be having fun and going out and watching movies....
u may say that i'm bored,
but i don't care...
coz all i want is to change the way i am,
and the way my life used to be...
i am punishing myself because i made a horrible mistakes...
i'm so damn stu**d to do those things...
how long am i punishing myself??
forever...
p/s: happy anniversary! n i love you!
